I had my written drivers test Wednesday morning and I failed. There are fifty questions and you are allowed to get ten wrong but I got eleven. I even studied a lot which is rare for me to do. Made me so mad and upset. Especially, since the very first time I took the written I passed. Its hard since I dont allow imperfection for myself. I am almost nineteen and I still dont have my license. I wonder if I will ever pass it now. Even if I do eventually pass there wont be room to take the road test until the end of September or later. Yup, thats how full the schedule is. By then my permit will expire so who knows what will happen. I hope eventually this will all work out because driving is my passion.
So, to keep my mind from beating myself up for failing I worked on some photography today as you can see above. I think I made a pretty cool selective color photo. Funny thing is my eyes arent blue. Just sometimes depending on the lighting my eyes get a blue tone to them. I made all sorts of interesting stuff in photoshop. A good way to show yourself is through art. I also created some videos today. Creating videos makes me feel better because I am not going to be down in front of a camera. Thats no fun to watch. So, I put a smile on, hit record and ta da, my mind focuses on making a good video.
I really hope everything works out soon. I am not so confident right now. I was feeling so motivated for my license which is rare for me since I have low self esteem and low motivation. I am a driver but not a test taker. I will eventually get my license because its possible. I dont have to be positive because I just end up being mad and disappointed with myself. So, now it is time to just wait for the day I take Baby Blue out for a long drive on my own.